Extreme
"It was at times like this, full of calm and terror, Potter said, that he felt most connected to himself and his surroundings."
On that note. Found the Colosseum tonight. Went completely the wrong way for Indian food. Found it, though, and then realized we could have easily walked there instead of taking the metro in a big circle. Had amazing canella and fiori di leche gelato. And today, the weather was stunning. I was happy as a lark.
We saw the Forum again today, but we were up close and personal this time. Our tickets are good until tomorrow so I think we'll go IN to the Colosseum, because we haven't done that yet. The Forum itself is of course, beautiful. Sometimes I wish I wasn't here with a bunch of tourists. It's hard to see past the tourist atmosphere and get a real, clear image of the monument in front of you. The aura still shines through, but I have to look a little harder and remove myself from where I am in order to really feel it.
My feet are sore from walking. I'm really missing home tonight. I'm missing wide open spaces. I'm missing the mountains of Colorado and the plains of Kansas.
On a less happy note, the trash here makes me hate my need for consumption.
I think I'll head to bed. Tomorrow I don't have class. This weekend is lay low weekend and Monday is when Grandma visits. So, I have a lot to look forward to.
Spring is in full bloom here. I am always trying to savor the moment, worried I'll let it slip away without tasting it. At the same time, I am always missing home. Bittersweet.
1 comments:
i'm home now..and i'm missing you. doesnt that count? and im sure my home misses you too.. u were in my bed once..well.. an air mattress on my brothers floor..so obviously when i mean home.. i mean home home.. i made it to ohio through the homework! and im drinking wine! but more like.. i said fuck it..im leaving anyways.. i can only stare at my prostitute peeps for so long before becoming a closet nympho? hah..but the site will be done for tuesday when its due! and ill give you the link.. its pretty entertaining and im proud of it thus far.. considering i suck at internet compilationds and html layout blah blah crap. pulled another allnighter this week and have been in the computer labs on campus averaging about 13hrs a day. what the fuck. oh! and i got locked into them too.. hahaha..they didnt know anyone was in there? and turned off the lights and closed the door.. i dont think ive ever stood still for that long..until that moment.. like 10 minutes..because the alarms are motion detectors and i thought i was gonna die lol. at any rate.. i got out and tried to turn off the alarm myself..and then passed two cops in the hallway pn the way out. they didnt catch me.. but uh..yea. im just stealthy awesome like that. but as far as the search for self satisfaction and worth goes. i couldnt have put it better myself. im completely lost..and im right there with you. i honestly couldnt tell you what the motivation is behind everything it is that i do on a daily basis..or for that matter.. if i even have a soul..sounds weird..but the biggest feeling of complete emptiness. just hollow. i see myself as a machine that does hw all the time..sleeps very seldom ..and eats enough to get by doing the standard day in and day out routine ive been programmed to do [so to speak]. so yea, it completly sucks. i miss you a lot and i love you a lot.
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