Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Attention, please.

I feel I may starve unless something happens soon. I just might.

Monday, January 26, 2009

Odd. and happy.


Looking for comfort. Avoiding dull readings and rave reviews of these dull readings. Quietly stalking. Bubbling rice, chopping canned vegetables. Everything askew. Blankets in lofty, unkempt waves and yesterday's socks over there. I've been sitting here for hours doing little but entertaining my ego. And it feels nice.


oh
the wild one
she stirs
she snarls
she sits and waits.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Predicting tomorrow

I need more time to be quite and creative and aware. I need time to get back in touch and step away from the rigid, scheduled and anxiously meaningless actions I seem to be caught in.

A few nights ago I dreamed that I was in a broken down grade school somewhere in Africa. The children surrounded me, tugging at me. The colors were vivid, orange and green and yellow and brown. Tall women beckoned me to admire their handmade crafts. I held one between my fingers, fondling it and decided I would purchase it. But before I did so, I opened up my notepad and started to write about what was happening around me. I was taking notes.

I woke up confused, but delighted by the sensation left with me in my waking.

I went to class and my professor showed us this: win a trip

Perhaps I'm the only one who will ever think my dream was a push. But, I am applying, and just maybe I'll go.



"Dreams seem to take the material from the past, the present and the future. Almost as though the dream maker has no time-space relationship but rather can travel in any direction - pas,t present, or future."

Monday, January 19, 2009

Missing Italy. Thinking politics.

I am sitting at Soma, as I have been for a few hours now. I've been studying and I've made some major dents in my work load. Of course, I've been putting this off, and all the reading is due tomorrow. But at least I'm doing it.

Anyway, there are two men sitting across from me and they're practicing their Italian and listening to them talk makes me miss the language and the experience I had in Rome. It's such a beautiful way of speaking. I can understand bits and pieces but I can't put it all together. I wish I could.

I read this article for class. I think you should read it, too.

Realignment, Now More Than Ever

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Tragedy of the commons




Why? Why are we consumed by consuming? Why do we have to make more things, bigger things? Why do we have to create jobs that are complete dead ends? What kind of progress will we get from hiring engineers to make water slides when they could be pondering progressive infrastructures and green buildings? We're digging and we're getting nowhere. I'd be okay with paying for something productive, but water parks? Baseball stadiums? Polar bear exhibits? Instead of putting them in cages, let's create jobs for people dedicated to finding ways to keep these beings alive in their natural habitats.

It's all backwards. And nobody seems to get it. Short term gains without consideration for long term consequences.

About abortion.

Planned Parenthood is in hot water.

On Dec. 3, a nurse employed at the Bloomington Planned Parenthood was suspended without pay after a tape surfaced showing her advising an alleged 13-year-old pregnant girl to lie about her age and the age of her 31-year-old boyfriend to avoid being reported to the police. The nurse then told the girl how to go across state lines to get an abortion without the consent of her parents.

Since then, an official investigation was conducted and that nurse has been fired, because in the state of Indiana, anyone under the age of 13 who is having sex must be reported to the police and Child Protective Services, as there could be a case of child abuse and/or statutory rape.

The catch is that the 13-year-old girl in the video was actually a 21-year-old UCLA student named Lila Rose. Rose travels to different Planned Parenthoods around the country and poses as a young teenager who needs help with a serious problem. Her objective, she says, is to catch Planned Parenthood covering up the abuse of young girls, which she claims the organization has been doing for years.

Initially, I was upset with Rose’s deceit and with the outcome of the situation, seeing as how the employee, who has given me helpful consultation in the past, lost her job in trying to help a young girl avoid a painful, unwanted pregnancy.

But yesterday, yet another video was released documenting the same situation in Indianapolis, and my frustration is now split between Planned Parenthood’s lack of caution and Lila Rose’s pro-life driven attacks on an organization that has helped many women for years. Most frustrating is that Rose is using the claim that she wants to protect young girls as leverage, when really, her intention is to hurt Planned Parenthood and draw negative attention to abortion rights.

It is disheartening that Planned Parenthood employees are not obeying the law. This is a clear demonstration that they are unaware of where their loyalty to their customers ends and where moral and legal obligation begins. What they offer is affordable, easy to access, confidential consultation on issues that are already incredibly controversial, especially in Indiana. Knowing this, they should be taking every step to ensure that their much needed services continue to be provided, and that they leave no wiggle room for mistakes. They will always have people on their back, waiting for them to slip up with evidence to support anti-abortion agendas. Perhaps the organization needed something like this to put them back in the mindset of carefully and mindfully considering each and every case and treating it with caution and care.

But Rose has not suggested there be any retraining of employees. Instead, she suggests the organization lose its government funding all together.

“Our goal is to expose to the public what’s going on in these clinics,” she said. “I would like to see Planned Parenthood convicted for its many abuses and de-funded. It’s an outrage that an organization covering up the sex abuse of young girls has a third of its budget propped up by taxpayer money.”

What a horrible thing to have happen.

Planned Parenthood is not the abuser in this situation, nor are they at fault for the numerous instances of abuse that happen each year. In fact, Planned Parenthood is partially responsible for lowering the abortion rate, which, in Sept., the Alan Guttmacher Institute reported is at its lowest since 1974. What types of things prevent early pregnancy? Sex education programs, easy to access contraceptives and health care, social acceptance of sexual expression, and government support that helps teens get information and confidential services. Planned Parenthood provides each and every one of these things, and has therefore played a huge role in actually reducing the abortion rate.

If Planned Parenthood goes, I would estimate that the number of teen pregnancies would rise and so would the number of abortions.

So Planned Parenthood does so many great things for its customers. They provide sex education, contraceptives, and consultation to help prevent unwanted pregnancies and promote healthy sex lives.

Personally, I’d like to know how many clinics Rose went to that did report her, and chose not to consult her without taking the appropriate legal action first. My guess would be that Planned Parenthood does more good than bad.

But these videos do represent a problem, and no one could argue that allowing a possible account of statutory rape to go unreported is excusable. But if Rose really gave a damn about helping young people stay safe, she’d never suggest Planned Parenthood lose any funding. Instead, she would take a more progressive approach and suggest the organization retrain its employees and revamp its approach toward confidentiality, because there are young people everywhere who are in dire need of help.

And while I agree that in both situations, the nurse should have made a report, and while Planned Parenthood needs to take more caution when dealing with these kinds of sensitive situations, there have got to be better ways to prevent teen victimization that don’t involve wild claims against Planned Parenthood or getting people fired.

So how else can we focus our attention on improving the sexual safety of our young ones? How about donating money to an organization like the Child Abuse Prevention Organization? How about actively participating in spreading information about the signs of abuse and how parents can prevent it? How about becoming a mentor? How about investing in sound sex education that emphasizes the importance of using protection?

Since the Indianapolis video was released, the Indiana attorney general’s office has been asked by Jackie Walorski, a republican Indiana state representative, to look into Planned Parenthood’s activities. I can only hope that this leads to an awakening for the organization. I can only hope they will become more careful and law abiding.

But you have to wonder, what are the chances a real 13-year-old girl who got mixed up with a 31-year-old man is going to come forward to talk about her problem now? How many young girls have been scared away from doing so, knowing they could become national news? How many 8th graders are going to carry the child of a grown man because they were too afraid they would have to talk to the police if they went to Planned Parenthood?

There are so many more positive ways Rose could focus her energy. She has successfully ruined the life of one at least one employee and says there are more tapes that will be released soon. In return, Rose has gotten more news coverage than any of us will ever have. If she really wanted to help people, she’d put her focus elsewhere, toward the real offenders, and toward helping the girls who need it. Instead she is lying, deceiving and adding fuel to a fire that is already blazing across the nation, and the young people who need all the good things Planned Parenthood offers are the ones getting burned.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Travels.



















































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